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Hi everyone, I feel sick…
in a way of laziness. Okay 
is not the type of sick that gets you to be in bed. I have been doing
some errands. And yet I called it lazy. It’s very confusing.

Anyway,
today I had to go the store and buy some "chilli" powders so I can make
chilli. I love making chilli. The bad part is that I can’t make the
"corn bread" cause’ my oven it’s broken.

I just hope my fiance buys me a new oven. I would love him forever if he does. (of course I would love him forever…. sight*)

Last night, I went to my first bar. Yeah, I’m 27 years old and I never
been to a bar before… >__> is very lame but, I did had a great
time. My boyfriend said I got very exicited. I guess I did. I really
wanted these people to talk about something. They just stood quite. I
wanted to socialized with them. But, they were so lame. There IQ’s were
really low. I guess they couldn’t come up with anything to say. Anyway,
the food was awsome. We had appetizers and I had a margatita, it got me
a little drunk. Well, the reason I said I got a little exicited cause’
I was slamming tables and snaping my fingers to get some attention.
But, I guess I got a little carried away. >__>

Today, I
feel much better though. My cold sore went away. My stomach doesn’t
hurt anymore. I was so surprised I didn’t had a hang over. Cause’ I
drank a glass of margarita. BTW

One of my friends in the army
came today. He took me to eat pizza. I really didn’t wanted any. But,
he said if I don’t eat, he won’t eat. So, I had to eat. He took his
little brother to meet me. He is so cute. But, really shy… He doesn’t
speak. Is hard to make him speak. I had a great time to see my friend
again. He stills looks the same. I think it had been like 2 years, I
haven’t seen him. I just hope tomorrow he gets to see my boyfriend too.
They are really good friends. I think it would be good for my guy to
stay in touch with him. It will do him good.

Anyway….

I
started to think about what had happend last night. And let me tell
you. Is hard to make a first impression to a person that you don’t
know. I really wanted to meet new friends. But, it seems it’s hard to
meet new people. Cause’ um… you really feel that you need to be a
different person. I think is gonna be hard to be myself if I meet new
people. I’m very different towards other people. I love anime, art,
guns, and most of all… I love to talk about anything. I tried to do
that last night. But, I felt they were too clueless to have a
coversation with me. They only wanted to get loaded. My boyfriend
explain me that. And I think it really stupid. If, your gonna go to a
fancy bar. At least have the courtesy to talk about something. I
mean…. that’s the whole purposed to meet people. I tried my best to
have a coversation with one of them. But, they just turn away. I felt
like they didn’t wanted to know me. I really wanted to know more about
them.

Anyway, I came to a conlusion… next time. I will just let people approach me. Instead, of me approaching them.

Meeting new people is really hard….
I just hope… I could have more friends.